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Hey people! I doubt I'm 'speaking' to many, but whatever. I feel like a little updating my life.

I'm in a new house right now, cause my house in under super-gutting renovations. I'm staying in what used to be my grandma's room. This house is probably less than half the size of my real house. So right now there's three adults, two teenagers, three dogs and a lizard living here.

Oh yeah, and a baby due on May 29.

Yeah it's pretty crazy. I still have yet to hear someone's story of being as old as me and having a sibling soon with parents that have never been divorced. It is insane. I will go insane. I am super excited and terrified at the same time. I think I'm good though as long as the kid isn't gay; not ratting on sexuality - I'm all for gay marriage and all that - it's just I am NOT dealing with a younger BROTHER of mine being obsessed with the next Hannah Montana. UGH! I know it's horribly steriotypical of me to say gay guys/kids are the only guys/kids who watch that crap, but c'mon. You know it's pretty true.

This kid is gonna know how to skate before he can walk, sing before he can talk, and draw pretty pictures. Or, at least, I'll try to feed his interest in such things I am totally buying this kid his first guitar if he shows interest. I am going to spoil him, unfortunately, but he won't be a brat. I'll make sure of that *pounds fist into hand*

I can't believe I just ranted that long about my brother. :S

Warning: Do not continue if you don't want to hear me complain about my life, kthanks.

Okay, so, Grade 12 is the most stressful thing of life. I am FAILING my Calculus course, I'm doing very poorly in English and Physics and Art is, as always, too difficult to even guess at a mark. I would drop my Calculus course, but I was so much of an IDIOT and took a Grade 11 course in Grade 12, and now I'm stuck with it. If not, I may be able to switch into another math course, Data Management, which is probably substantially easier. The problem with that is that we are week 7 or so of the semester, so not only would I have to see if I'm even good at Data Management, I'd have to learn 6 weeks worth of course material in about a week or so so I don't become unrecoverably behind.

I absolutely hate school. So much. I should not be in school, I am much too stupid for this. I should be taking college courses, I should have applied to art schools. I shouldn't have pretended to be intelligent when I'm not. Now I've dug myself into this hole and I've few ways to get out.

I don't want to stay at Newman. That is what is terrifying me. I can easily graduate, it's getting into University that I can't do. No one in their right minds will accept me into their school, especially once they get my mid-term marks. My average will be 60 at best. What the hell am I supposed to do? I can't talk to my parents. I always end up crying anyway and none of what I want to say comes out right. Like I know it's cliche, but they actually just don't get it. They're not me.

I cannot deal with this.

Just an entry I put into my real journal last night. I'd love to hear your opinions if you read through this

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What am I? I generally don't ask myself such questions, but I think that I've had an epiphany of sorts.

I think I am an artist.

Many people (myself included), would probably think something along the lines of "Well, DUH." if I were to tell them that, but I believe that being titled as an artist is much more meaningful than most would think.

This is all my opinion and my interpretation through the things I've learned, the things I've seen and the things I've done.

I believe that an artist is ultimately a creator. That alone differenciates between the masses of those who consider themselves artists. For example, those who only do fan-art, fan-fictions and follow books instructing you on how to create in a certain art form, I wouldn't consider these people artists. I would call them inspired, at most. I believe that an artist has to have a certain love for their creations. How can you love a creation when it is a mere copy of another artists creation? A true artist creates something with depth, something that expresses emotions without blatantly having to do so. An artist creates because they need to, because it is in the artists nature to always be pushing their own limits for the love of art. An artist creates things that have soul to them.

I believe that a true artist does not create from the mold society gives them. Most artists will have elements of "popular artwork" within their own, but no artist can ever avoid inspiration. It is this inspiration that furthers what I believe is a true artist. How many times does an artist find their mind wandering at the sight or sound of the most common things? How many times has the artist seen one of the most unloved, branded as ugly, thing and merely saw the beauty in it? The true artist is not only creates art, but lives art.

I believe that I fit into the criteria above. That is why I believe that I am an artist.

As the title says. It's been a while, and I guess I have quite a bit of stuff that's been going on. Haha I work at Bulk Barn now. And no, I can't get any of you free candy. I only get a 10% discount myself.

I started working on my Mrs. Lovett costume, which is going pretty well enough. I haven't had much time to work on it, so I only have a green piece of material sewn into a really wide skirt with a front piece that has some ruffly things. I don't even have a waist for it yet, it's like those huge clown pants, except I have nothing to hold it up with. Though, I really have to worry about the top part, since it'll be quite a challenge to make a corset.

Went to the University fair and saw people from Dame! Haha most random meeting ever. Good thing I realized I had no idea where I was going, or else I wouldn't have been just standing there looking lost when you guys noticed me, cause I didn't see you guys

Wow. Can anyone tell Darkness Aurora's been on hiatus for forever and a half? At least I wrote out that plot thing so I'm not completely lost for the first half of the story. The end is still sketchy.

I'm really tired. I suppose I shouldn't be complaining about it, but I'm too tired to care right now.

... is way too hot.

I'm currently writing out the basic storyline for Darkness Aurora so I'm not blindly making comics one chapter at a time anymore. It's going pretty well so far. I've divided it up into 5 'books', but the number of chapters in each book and number of pages per chapter is still to be seen.

If anyone wants to read and critique, I'll love your forever!

I need to know if I've got plot holes and inconsistency and crap like that that I absolutely hate but always end up having. I should have it done by the end of today. So yeah, if anybody wants to read it, PM, e-mail, IM me kaythnx

So anyway, summer's been pretty good so far. I just got back from camping yesterday and IT ONLY RAINED ONCE! ON THE LAST DAY, IN THE MORNING WHILE WE WERE SLEEPING!! Sorry, I'm just so happy we had nice weather for once. If anyone goes camping and can recommend any campsites other than Algonquin, Mikisew, Arrowhead, Serpent's Mounds and Six Mile Lake, I'd love to hear about them!

I haven't been drawing much at all this summer. I'll be drawing out the thumbnails for D.A. soon, as well as an epic cover for once, and character profiles, not that there's many main characters.

Hope you guys are having a fun, relaxing time away from school! <3